It’s Okay To Not Have It All Figured Out
At the beginning of November, for the first time ever, I had no idea what I was doing with my life.
Ever since I can remember, I’ve always had a plan. I’ve always known what was coming next. There was always a sense of safety in my routine.
It went like this: I would go to high school, then graduate from college, then easily get a job with my degree.
It’s actually a little silly thinking about it. A few weeks ago, I was thinking about how life is too easy. I had a job doing what I’d always wanted to do and I was living a stable life. Where were the hiccups everyone warned me about?
Little did I know, an upset was waiting for me just around the corner.
At the beginning of November, I quit my job. I was a high school English teacher. I had the job I had worked so hard for in college, the job I pined after for four long years. And I quit.
I quit, and now I feel angry at teaching. I feel betrayed by my passion. I feel completely and utterly lost.
Suddenly, I don’t quite know what I want to do anymore, and this revelation has left me shattered.
All I know is English and education. All I’m good at is reading and writing and teaching. What else am I supposed to do? What else can I do?
I struggled with these questions for weeks after leaving my job. I took career matching tests and applied for every job under the sun, hoping and praying that I might find answers.
While I didn’t find concrete answers to my questions, I did find solace after talking to my dad. In essence, he told me that it’s okay.
It’s okay to not have it all figured out.
It’s okay because you are still so young.
It’s okay because this is just the beginning of your journey.
It’s okay because you are asking the right questions.
It’s okay because you are learning valuable lessons.
It’s okay because this experience is helping your grow.
It’s okay because you are resilient.
It’s okay because someone with your talent and ambition will amount to something great.
It’s okay because this sort of adversity is what makes life richer.
I’m taking this time of unrest as a lesson in patience. The other day, I was making a cup of tea and the quote on the tag gave me a sense of comfort.
It said, “Nature does not hurry, yet everything is accomplished.”
With time, things will become clearer. With time, opportunities will unfold. With time, I will discover exactly where I am meant to be.
What steps do you take to get you through times of uncertainty? Have you ever thought about a career change?
To other English majors out there, I’d love to hear what you do.